Thursday, October 20, 2011

In A Dark Place

I had a post I was going to publish today, but it just doesn't seem the day for it.  I'm in a dark place.  It's just been about the past 24ish hours and these funks don't last long for me, but I'm riding it out and learning while I do.

In my darkness I'm trying to remember that food's not a comfort and that I'm in the process of building a stronger me.

Please stay with me.  I know I haven't been terribly present here, but I'm usually always available if you need me.  I am, 99% of the time, a frightfully positive and upbeat person and truthfully I was going to skip writing anything today (y'know, the ol' "If you don't have anything positive to say...." thing).  But I wanted you all to know that even the most upbeat and positive among us have dark days - days where they can't stop the tears and can't quite pinpoint why.  It's clear I just need to let them fall.

I want you to know, dear reader (yes, I totally ripped that off from Stephen King), that I am fine.  I am, at the core of me, a very happy person.  I am thankful.  I am one-fourth of an incredibly awesome family.  I just need to feel what I'm feeling.

(and also - yes, one off day won't derail me.  I have said this to others more times than I can count and I need to remember my own advice)

Until later - I hope you all are well.


  1. Seems like this has been that kind of week. I'm also stumbling around, far from the cheery place that I generally inhabit. I struggle with posting the non-happy side of life, since I conditioned myself years ago, in a series of bad/abusive relationships to portray the "shiny-happy" side to the world. But I think it's a positive thing to post that you're not having a great day... it's what makes us human. I hope you find your way back to equilibrium soon.

  2. It's totally fine to be in a funk! Your perspective of the positive things in your life is pretty strong, I bet you'll feel better in no time.

  3. Life happens. Hope you are back to your normal self soon.... Be well.

  4. I'm not myself either - hope you feel better soon!


  5. Hormones......maybe? Mine wreak havoc with my emotions, just keep your chin up and take one day at a time.

  6. Sending you some cyber hugs


  7. I just wanted to officially comment on your blog.

    I hope the darkness is lifting. Because it will lift. And you'll appreciate the light all the more.

  8. We all go through those dark places, I hope you get out of it soon!

  9. Refreshingly honest, transparent & tender.
    We all get there, it's how we deal with it shows us the type of person we are.

    A cyber hug from me too.


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