A lot of things have changed since my first blog post. Originally, I thought this might just be a space for me to vent my MANY frustrations about losing weight. Since then, though it's become more than just my outlet. I truly enjoy coming here almost every day and just writing. I'd truly forgotten how much I enjoy just writing. Not just about weight loss, but in general.....putting the English language together into sentences and (sometimes)making sense. I absolutely love it. It's become my sanctuary.
I'm 35. I don't feel 35, whatever that means. In my head I still feel like I'm 20. Maybe that's why I'm told to act my age! But seriously, I just don't feel like I'm "supposed" to feel at 35. I feel younger than that number.
I've had food issues and have been overweight most of my life. There is photographic evidence, though, that I was once a SKINNY child. I just wish I could find that photo. I actually had bony knees. But over the years growing up, I just turned to food when I felt I couldn't cope. I will never EVER forget the day, in the 5th grade, when a boy in my class (who shall remain nameless, though I suspect he's still a bully) would tease me about being fat. When I'd stand next to my super skinny friend, he'd point to me and say, "Look, she's big as a whale," then point to my friend and say, "and she's small as a snail." Which cracked him the hell up. And began my repulsion of myself and the way I looked.
My main purpose here, on this blog, is to help myself get through my "issues" (I sound so new-agey) and make a friend or two along the way who understands where I'm coming from.....which is happening. Have you ever read Operation Shrink Charlie's Big Butt? Well, you should, because it's awesome. She's someone who can relate and doesn't take herself too seriously, which is what I'm all about.
She's running a contest right now for a Blog Makeover from April Showers Blog Design. I'd LOVE LOVE LOVE to win the makeover. While I really do like my red and green weight loss apples (totally lifted from a free clip art site), my blog is visually B.O.R.I.N.G. Which I don't think I am. I'd love for it to reflect my personality. Which it currently does not. I ain't just red and green!!
Tomorrow - a weight loss post and a few observations. I promise!