When I feel strong and confident I feel MUCH thinner. Despite the fact that I've only just lost 14ish pounds so far, there have been days when my eating has been spot-on, my workouts have been strong, and I've been doing everything in my power to achieve my goals. On those days I feel much thinner than I really am....and I feel.....are you ready for this? Beautiful.
I am beginning to realize that feeling beautiful doesn't have a hell of a lot to do with how your hair decided to behave today, or if your socks match your shirt, or even if you put makeup on that day or not (I admit to forgetting to wear make up more often than I remember to).
In the past two months, feeling beautiful comes from confidence and pride in the effort I've put into myself. It carries over to other aspects of my life. I've gotten my life organized. I've gotten my home clean from top to bottom (almost) and organized. Hell, I even cleaned out the Swagger Wagon which had a whole winter's worth of crap in it. And (are you ready for this one?) I've shaved my legs ON A REGULAR BASIS for the past month or so, much to the delight of my wonderful husband, I'm sure. Losing just a few pounds has put the spark back in my self worth. And I know that I can do even more!
Conversely, on days when I lose control, or when I don't put in my best effort (and deep down we all know when those days are) I feel disgusting. Fat, ugly, unmotivated and disheveled (an aside - I love that word "disheveled). Those are the days that my lazy side says, "Isn't this better? This is so much more fun to eat whatever and however much you want. No more getting up at 5am to workout! Sleep in! Eat! View life from your recliner!"
I kind of like feeling pretty. I kind of like having that spring in my step. I know my family has noticed (my husband even remarked about it a few days ago). And the great thing is I know how to keep it: Keep doing the hard work that makes all this worth it!
Have a great day, everyone! I'm thankful for each and every one of you!