When I'm in binging mode, I feel constantly full, but not fulfilled. There seems to be an emptiness that I have to fill but can't. The concept of stopping doesn't often occur to me and it's like a mission to feel "full." It starts to become a normal feeling that I have to have all the time.
But I am learning, slowly, that it's ok to not feel full all the time. That feeling of being stuffed isn't healthy OR comforting. It's ok to feel a little hungry at times (but the feeling of completely starving, for me, is not ok - it's likely to lead to a binge). It's all a very fine balance, for me anyway. I'm currently on Day 11 of earning my #30daychip with my buddies on Twitter. For me that means that I've gone the past 10 days with controlled eating and no binges. I have to pre-plan my days and stick to the plan. That sometimes means that I feel mildly hungry between meals or snacks, but that "hunger" is often squashed with a glass of water.
Did you hear that? A. GLASS. OF. WATER. That's amazing for me. In the not-so-distant past if I felt hungry in the slightest bit, I would search and search and search (often coming up with some very bizarre but delicious combination) until I was stuffed. I'm not proud of that but seriously it is part of who I am. NOT binging or being out of control with my eating is a lot of hard work. You'd think that I could just tell myself to stop and do it. That just doesn't work for me. I have to constantly keep at it.
But the effort is SO worth it!!