Thursday, February 17, 2011

It's OK!!

When I'm in binging mode, I feel constantly full, but not fulfilled. There seems to be an emptiness that I have to fill but can't. The concept of stopping doesn't often occur to me and it's like a mission to feel "full." It starts to become a normal feeling that I have to have all the time.

But I am learning, slowly, that it's ok to not feel full all the time. That feeling of being stuffed isn't healthy OR comforting. It's ok to feel a little hungry at times (but the feeling of completely starving, for me, is not ok - it's likely to lead to a binge). It's all a very fine balance, for me anyway. I'm currently on Day 11 of earning my #30daychip with my buddies on Twitter. For me that means that I've gone the past 10 days with controlled eating and no binges. I have to pre-plan my days and stick to the plan. That sometimes means that I feel mildly hungry between meals or snacks, but that "hunger" is often squashed with a glass of water.

Did you hear that? A. GLASS. OF. WATER. That's amazing for me. In the not-so-distant past if I felt hungry in the slightest bit, I would search and search and search (often coming up with some very bizarre but delicious combination) until I was stuffed. I'm not proud of that but seriously it is part of who I am. NOT binging or being out of control with my eating is a lot of hard work. You'd think that I could just tell myself to stop and do it. That just doesn't work for me. I have to constantly keep at it.

But the effort is SO worth it!!

9 comments:

  1. You are doing great Colleen. Keep up the great work!

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  2. Colleen you are amazing! keep up the awesome work. I'm having to learn some hard lessons this month, but I think they are what I need to get it going! woo hoo

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  3. Me too, I have to constantly be aware and it's not such a bad thing. Good for you, Colleen.

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  4. I've read and heard to drink water, that sometimes when we think we're hungry, we're actually dehydrated. My big problem is, I hate water. Yah, I'm drinking it, but after months of it, I still don't like it. LOL But congrats for doing so great!

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  5. Thank you so much for your comments! I sometimes have to force myself to drink water, but I do. Some days more than others.

    Maria - do you like the crystal light packets that you can add to your water? That might help.

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  6. Hi, I'm new to the diet blogging world, so I've only just found your blog. This post is really something I needed to reinforce, so thanks for it.

    Good luck, and congrats on all your achievements so far.

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  7. Hi, I'm new to the diet blogging world, so I've only just found your blog. This post is really something I needed to reinforce, so thanks for it.

    Good luck, and congrats on all your achievements so far.

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